Did Robin Williams Die Of Auto-Erotic Asphyxiation?

I want to talk about something that may be controversial. I know I’m gonna get inundated with a flood of hate mail.

But we don’t have a filter here. We are not afraid to say things that will challenge your mind and make you question what the media is telling you. If what we say gets people talking, then we’re doing our job.

What I want to touch on is Robin Williams. I had a conversation last night with a friend about his death and the circumstances surrounding it. As we talked, I came up with some theories that I would like to discuss. Some may say it is too soon and may be insensitive. Like many of you, I am struggling to comprehend something that seems to make no sense. These are my thoughts and I am in no way disparaging the legacy of this man. If anything, I would like to think that there is a better explanation for his death than him waking up and deciding that life sucks and killing himself. A man who had so much going on in his life.

My friend and I discussed the possibility that he accidentally killed himself and did not commit suicide. Did Robin Williams die of auto-erotic asphyxiation? For those who are not familiar with auto-erotic asphyxiation, let me explain. It is the process of cutting off the oxygen to ones brain while masturbating, which creates intense euphoria upon climaxing.

I know some people will say “Rob, that’s disgusting. How can you talk about him like that?” Again, I don’t mean to disparage him at all. I just think that it is possible that he was high, because he had recently fallen off the wagon and decided to engage in a practice that he himself made a movie about. Could it be that he accidentally died? Just like David Carradine did in Bangkok? Carradine, who was best known for his work in the 1970s TV series Kung Fu, was found in a hotel room in Bangkok, Thailand in 2009, hanging in a similar fashion to Robin Williams.

There was a special on 20/20 recently that explored young people playing choke out games in school. This practice has been growing in popularity because it is a way to get high without doing drugs. It’s called the “good student high.” One student compresses the airway of the other until he or she passes out and when they come to, they experience a euphoric feeling similar to that of a drug without actually doing drugs. Auto-erotic asphyxiation has been going on for years and there have been a few who have died from it.

There were a couple of things in the Robin Williams scenario that left me a bit puzzled. The first was how he was found, sitting in a chair. Initial reports stated that he was partially clothed, it was then said that he was clothed. But the fact that he was sitting in a chair defies all logic as to how people hang themselves for a suicide. A person who is intent on killing themselves by hanging usually stands on a chair and kicks it over. It’s just like jumping off a building or shooting yourself. Once you make that leap or pull that trigger there is no turning back. Sitting in a chair still affords you the opportunity to change your mind and makes the possibility of a successful suicide lower because of your body’s natural instinct to survive. It doesn’t make sense that someone who really wanted to die would choose this method.

The way Williams was found is eerily similar to how David Carradine was discovered. Hanging in a closet with a belt around his neck that was fastened to a closet door. Another thing that struck me as odd was the superficial cuts that were on his wrists with a pocket knife nearby. Why would somebody initially choose a method that is by all accounts more peaceful and less violent that hanging and then decide to go with the more painful method? Cutting ones wrists and bleeding out makes the victim pass out and go to sleep and die. Hanging and choking to death is far more uncomfortable. It doesn’t makes sense. What makes sense to me is someone discovering Robin Williams in an embarrassing situation and cutting his wrists to make it look like he tried to do it that way first. And a pocket knife? It looks to me like someone tried to cover it up and didn’t do a good job because they were upset. To use a pocket knife to try to kill yourself and deciding to hang yourself in a crude fashion simply doesn’t add up. And I still can’t figure out how someone kills themselves by sitting in a chair.

What is also curious is that in 2009, Robin Williams did a movie about this exact same subject. It was called World’s Greatest Dad. Robin plays a dad who discovers his son has died from auto-erotic asphyxiation and covers it up to make it look like a suicide, so people won’t know that his son died by accident while jerking off. You can call it a coincidence or art imitating life, but in 2014 Robin Williams is dead of an apparent suicide that looks strangely similar to the way David Carradine died. We’re supposed to believe that he used a pocket knife to slash his wrists, decided that wasn’t gonna work, so he sits in a chair and hangs himself? Is this art imitating life? I don’t know, but it sure is strange.

Robin Williams was also very open with his feelings and about his struggles with substance abuse. He’s done very revealing interviews with Ellen Degeneres, Matt Lauer and Marc Maron, the comedian. He’s opened up about his marriages, his open heart surgery, he’s talked about feeling depressed. My question is this: Why would someone who has been so open with the world not leave a suicide note? Nothing? Absolutely nada? He did an extensive podcast interview with Marc Maron where he discussed his battle with depression. He said that he sometimes got depressed, but he looked around and said, “Do I have a beautiful house? Yes. Do I make lots of money? Yes. Do I have wonderful kids? Yes. So it’s not that bad.” He said the things that got him over the drugs and depression was reflecting on what a great life he had.

So how does this guy who has such a great life get to the point where he suddenly decides to end it all by hanging himself with a belt in a closet? There are reports that he had money problems. This was quickly dispelled by his publicist who said that he was loaded. A guy flush with cash all of a sudden sits in a chair, ties a belt around his neck and chokes himself to death? It makes no sense.

What makes sense to me is a guy who was recently in rehab, so you know he was prone to relapsing. His people said he hadn’t fallen off the wagon, but he was feeling a little edgy and he might possibly do drugs again. He went to rehab just to make sure he didn’t slip up. My opinion is he fell off the wagon. My opinion is that he was fucked up and decided to do a little auto-erotic asphyxia after his wife went to bed. He was fucked up and he accidentally died.

Robin Williams was the male version of Sandra Bullock, America’s Sweetheart. A guy who was universally loved by all ages, a part of many charitable organizations, provided entertainment to troops in Afghanistan and Iraq. Part of a team who made millions for homeless people. You couldn’t find a single person to say a bad word about him. This man couldn’t be found naked, with his dick in his hand and a belt around his neck dying while jerking off. This isn’t David Carradine, who nobody gave a shit about. This is America’s Sweetheart. His huge legacy couldn’t be tarnished by such a crude act. I don’t believe that Robin Williams’ people were going to let that happen. Robin Williams’ people made sure that everybody would know that Robin Williams’ death was the result of a suicide.

From the superficial cuts on his wrists to him being partially clothed, then not and all of the talk about his depression, which he would always punctuate with “But my life is great, I love my kids and I battle through it.” Robin Williams wasn’t a quitter. He went from being a stand up comedian to a breakout role on Happy Days that morphed into his own wildly successful series, a string of hit comedies and then challenging himself with serious roles and eventually winning an Oscar.

Robin Williams was still on top of the world at 63. He was not on a career downslide. He was in a TV series and people said that it was a step down. Television is not something that people look down their noses at anymore. You have people in TV who are making more than A-list movie stars. The Big Bang Theory cast, those morons are pulling down a million plus an episode. Robin Williams had 4 movies that are coming out still. One of them is a Night at the Museum sequel, the first two grossed hundreds of millions of dollars. Robin Williams was still making millions.

This was not a guy who was so despondent that he would suddenly kill himself with no note or explanation to give his loved ones closure. He was open to the entire world about his problems. It doesn’t make sense. I want to think he died accidentally. I think his people covered it up to protect his legacy and no one is going to ever know the real truth. I’m sorry for speculating and putting light on this theory, but I would like to remember Robin Williams as the genius he was. I want to think of the Robin Williams who partied with John Belushi and who fell off the wagon and was a kinky freak and accidentally died. Not someone who gave up on life and killed himself and gave no one answers as to why.